Josie
You say that you are confused
There is no reason to be confused
As I knew that what is happening
Might easily happen given the right conditions
I have chatted to mummy about this
As she understands so much about us both
Both from a Christian angle and a personal one
For a number of years I have felt guilty
That in certain lights
I am the sole key holder
In our relationship
In the coming years you might want a child
After all children are God’s greatest gift
You might want to celebrate love in a marriage
Married in the eyes of God
Whether it is wrong or right
I cannot deny you these
That would be ill of me
It is not our fault far from it
The world does not know how to deal
With its Joe and Josie’s
It never has which is incredibly sad
Neither you or I have the answer
Only God will give us direction
I tend to over think everything
And second guess even God
How smug I am
You dear Josie although far superior to me
Will always follow your emotions
I knew that there would always be a Cora
Who in my view is the best thing that has happened to you
If it had not been Cora it would have been somebody else
This has been coming for a number of years
What I am saying is that I understand what is happening
Mummy understands what is happening
Nothing is happening
Seriously nothing is happening
Whatever happens (if anything happens at all)
Will not change us as one can love more than one person
That is easy to understand
I am your brother you are my sister
We share a special love
That will never change
I have asked God for guidance
And I would imagine that you have
The main thing is that it does not make you ill
If you become ill again nothing will be gained
Just follow God’s direction as I will try to do
You are not confused everything is so crystal clear
I thought it would be good to share my thoughts
Although you could have written this mail
As you know me better that I know myself
Just go forward with confidence
I am looking forward to seeing you again as I have missed you
Mummy is so pleased that you are planning to stay with her
She likes Cora a great deal and can sense the deep chemistry between you
We are a strong family you know and one that Daddy would have been so proud of
Joe XXX